It Allowed Me to Rediscover Joy in My Daily Life and Regain My Energy
During the first session, I received feedback that I was shaking hands with a sense of obligation. Initially, I thought that since it was something that I was told to do, it was natural to view it as an obligation. However, after the session, I realized that I could actually find joy in shaking hands, which is something I had never considered before. This opened up a new possibility for me; I could find joy in everything I do in my life!
Your session helped me remember how much I used to enjoy my job, cherish my family, home, and cats, and feel passionate about my hobbies. Despite having all these things I desired, over time, everything had become dull and obligatory, draining my energy and making me long for retirement. It allowed me to rediscover joy in my daily life and regain my energy. Realizing that I didn’t have to confine this sparkling and twirling light of joy, which is my very essence, filled me with excitement and kept me from sleeping for a few days.
Also, the thing that had been bothering me the most recently was my anxiety. I was shocked to learn that the strategy I had been employing, which I had somewhat prided myself on, was actually creating my anxiety. I believed that by not feeling other people’s feelings, I was living life based on my own desires rather than those of others, thus always staying true to myself. However, it became evident that in reality, I was deeply afraid of judgment and rejection, as this strategy prevented me from forming genuine connections with others. I realized that my fear of being judged or excluded compelled me to strive for perfection in my work (even in something as simple as shaking hands), resulting in constant anxiety before starting any task.
This was even more apparent during the archetype session. It became clear that I had been suppressing my true self and that my actions lacked naturalness, creativity, and freedom. All of this stemmed from my fear of being judged by people, which accelerated my avoidance and inability to connect with others. It’s ironic because I believed that I was gaining freedom by not caring about other people’s feelings.
Understanding this underlying whole structure is something that hadn’t emerged in previous somatic sessions I took elsewhere, which focused on smaller aspects without revealing the bigger picture. It seemed endless because I lacked an understanding of this overall structure. Now it has become apparent how this structure influences all of my daily actions. Discovering this influence in each small action doesn’t make me feel good, but it is far better than unconsciously repeating the same patterns and being stuck!
Thank you so much for your accurate and compassionate feedback, and I’m looking forward to seeing you next time.